Healing My Relationship Insecurities

About 2 years ago I started my life as a healer. I've had around 712 reiki self-treatments, plus treatments off friends, treatments at reiki shares, and I also invest in once a month reiki sessions with a healer too. Not to mention the workshops; the crystals all over my house, the reiki I send to situations past and present and the reiki that comes through me when I give healing. That's a lot of healing. It's no wonder my healing experiences are so intense.

It would all mean nothing if I wasn't prepared to do the inner work that accompanies it. It's occurred to me recently that the easier 'surface work' (as I call it) has now all been done. That means the very obvious work, the things that could be spotted at 50 paces, have all started to heal.

Now I'm getting to the proper darkness. The murky, horrible, painful stuff that none of us like to admit exists. In fact a lot of us would be so blind to it, we'd say it doesn't exist for us. Oh, but, it does...it's in there somewhere, lurking....

It all started where it can always be found, in my fear energy. I'm carrying a huge amount of fear that I'm not loved. I should drop it, but it's so familiar I find myself unable to.

Yet I'm living with someone who I've loved for 10 years. Not that time has anything to do with it - you can love someone more for 10 minutes than for 10 years, in some cases.

Examination of this fear has led to so many discoveries about me and my insecurities, of which I have many. Even as a seasoned healer, I don't know where to start. Consumed by the darkness and swallowed by the pain, I haven't been able to communicate what's happening to me. 

It goes something like this:

I'm frightened that I might think we're in love, but we're not.
I'm frightened I'm not lovable and loved.
If I'm not loved (or loving) I shouldn't stay.
I'm frightened of endings.
I'm frightened of staying if I'm not meant to.
I'm frightened of staying if this is the sort of inner work it brings.
I'm frightened this relationship is reminding me of my vulnerabilities.
I'm frightened to share this in case I'm the only one.
I'm frightened of being the only one.
I'm frightened there's no-one in this world for me.
I'm frightened if it's just me, I won't survive.
I'm frightened if I do survive, I won't be happy.
I'm frightened this healing is going to end 'us'.
I'm frightened my partner won't join in this healing and it'll separate 'us' and I'll be on my own.
I'm frightened there is no 'us'.
I'm frightened this isn't healing, but an ending in disguise.
I'm frightened if that's true, I'll never love like this again.
I'm frightened that only people who face their own darkness will understand this process.

It seems I'm frightened to be on my own. If you know me, you'll know I love time on my own, but that is entirely different to what I'm talking about.

The fact is, I like that I've got someone I can rely on, someone taking care of me, a guaranteed hug every night, someone I don't have to explain myself to...to some extent someone I don't have to make an effort with. 

I've got someone who fascinates me and someone who gently restores the balance when it all goes out of sync.. It's a comfort. And amongst my many fears, I feel I need comfort. We all seek comfort in some form or another. 

Where is this healing leading me to? The obvious answer would be a relationship split, since that's where my fear lies. I find myself wondering if we're falling apart to fall back together again, or just falling apart? I can feel it because I'm sensitive. He can't. 

I find myself crying at all hours of the day. I find myself crippled with pain at what I'm finding out about myself and the ensuing turmoil. It turns out I'm also frightened of the unknown. Nothing is more frightening than the unknown on my own. 

Where fear lies, I often find our biggest breakthroughs. The question is, will we breakthrough or will we breakdown?

Whenever there is healing, there is opportunity for growth and change. The growing pains are just that - painful. The change is often beautiful.

The process can be the hardest one in the world. That's why so many won't do the inner work. At times like these I wish I didn't do the inner work too. I long to go back to sleep, to the safe, sheep-like mentality of a 9-5 job, oblivious to all that holds me back. I find myself envious of those who don't have the hurt. I get angry with my soul for agreeing to this path.

I still find myself doing what I always do now, standing at a crossroads when every direction points to pain. I sometimes doubt I can go on, but deep inside I know that I will. Like some kind of autopilot, my soul will push me through.

Whatever the future holds, I hope I can be honest enough to bare my open wounds for the benefit of all.

Nothing is real but love. 

Inspirational, Positive Spiritual Quotes And Mantras

Here are some of my own inspirational, spiritual quotes and mantras. Feel free to use and share them, but please make sure that this blog address remains on them. Thank you.

Be Your Own Best Friend And Magic Will Happen.

We are often hardest on ourselves and our own worst critic. Can you remember a time when you gave yourself as good advice as you'd give a friend? We all need to learn to listen to our own inner wisdom, to trust our intuition and to not be afraid to tell ourselves some harsh truths once in a while. Balance this with compassion for yourself and you will live in love and truth.

Let Go Of The Past To Make Room For The Future.

It's hard to let go of things in our life we hold (or even once held) dear. If we can master the art of letting go, we make room for the universe to bless us with more abundance and gifts. Give to receive and let go to let in.

When A Light Is Switched On, Darkness Has Nowhere To Go And It Dies.

Fight fear with love and light, then watch as the fear and the darkness fades. 

Love Is All Around You. All You Have To Do Is Open Your Heart And Your Eyes Will See It.

The more we give love, the more we are open to receive and recognise it. The more we put up barriers to protect ourselves, the more we lock love out and the less we can receive. 

Your Thoughts, Words And Actions Create Your Future. Be Positive For A Brighter Future.

Our whole Universe is energy, we are energy too. Our thoughts, words and actions transmit energy and we get back what we put out there. It's wise to watch our words, learn to think positive and only behave in ways that emanate what we would want back in our lives. The key to this is gratitude: if you can feel grateful for all you have your in life, you will emit positive energy and it will come right back to you. Your life is a mirror of what's inside you.

May your weekend be blessed with love, laughter and positivity. 

Keeping The Faith In Times Of Trouble

Ever felt like you were being tested? "These things were sent to 'try' us", that sort of thing?

During the past few weeks I have been 'tried' to about as much as I can take. I'm sure you've all had times like that? Maybe you're going through a time like that right now or know someone who is. I'm sending love out to any who are.

Want to know how it all started? Are you sitting comfortably? About 4 weeks ago, on a Friday, I was doing a reiki self-treatment when a very loud and clear message was received completely out of the blue. The message was..."Your cats mission here on earth is up. You got him to be a best friend to your son and now your son has a best friend at college." WHAT?! It was clear I was being forewarned to prepare for our cats departure. Devastated doesn't quite cover it. I sobbed and shook the whole way through the remainder of the treatment. My cat was perfectly healthy: I didn't understand the message.

The following Monday my cat was sick. I immediately took him to the vets. Even then everything seemed fine and the vet said the cat was incredibly healthy for a 16 year old, but his teeth need scraping and they'd want to do a 'dental'. It's normal practice to check older cats blood and urine before an op, so that's what happened.

Once the results were in, I was called but told I'd best go in for the results. By this time I was starting to fear (I know, I'm still battling that beast!) the worst.

I was told that our cat has renal failure and that they wouldn't want to do the op, as a result. All his issues were manageable so I was still hopeful he'd be OK.

Choose fear or faith

To try to put it into perspective, he is not 'just' a cat to us. He's the centre of our universe, everything in the house revolves around our love for him and has done for over 14 years. Rather like when someone has a new baby, but if that baby stayed a baby for all those years. Most people will understand this, but I know for some it will be incomprehensible to get so close to an animal.

 Our cat making himself comfy

 Our cat looking up at us with his big gold eyes

Our cat enjoying a good sleep and dream

There's something about people (or pets) passing over that I don't handle well at all. It's definitely something I need to work on. Strange really as I have regular conversations with one of my nanas that passed years ago. You'd think I'd handle it better than most, but for some reason...I don't!

So far we've had a few traumatic weeks of thinking todays the day he leaves, oh no it isn't, oh yes it is (not quite as pantomime as it sounds). Many of you will know the endless rollercoaster of emotions when someone is terminally ill.

Several other tests have been thrown in on the way, but I will not write about these. I've been on a low vibe so was bound to attract other nasty stuff in to my life too.

I got to breaking point, as our cat wouldn't eat and was seriously ill. I couldn't handle the upset any more and I was so angry about it all. It feels like this is part of my chosen path: a necessary lesson and so I took to my Asana (wool mat used for Shakti invoking meditation). I was too wound up to meditate. Instead I had what can only be described as a rant at Shakti, Shiva, reiki, angels and even the 'G' word (God). I wanted to know why, I needed help and I was giving up this stupid path anyway - everyone is leaving me, so why should I stay?

Archangel Metatron came to me and said he has another mission for my cat very soon and that he would look after him. Even this wasn't good enough for me. I felt guilty as I knew it would be hard for our cat too, but I was asking for support for me. I changed tack, I asked for healing for our cat and support to get him through.

I gave our cat regular reiki even though I knew it would help him leave his physical body. This taught me to trust reiki to do right by him and for me to surrender as the channel and reiki as the healer. I fully expected our cat to pass away soon, he deteriorated rapidly.

In the end the vet gave us 48 hours to get him well or bring him back into the surgery. I did another reiki and his condition worsened. It came to me to take him into the vets even though 12 hours, not 48, had passed. He was admitted as an emergency case and we all thought this was 'it'.

Our cat is now home and his kidney function is within normal range. The main issue is his teeth and if anti-biotics don't sort them, he will likely need that 'dental', but if he has it, he has a very good prognosis.

Things are not always as they seem

Essentially, I have learnt so much from this experience and although I haven't enjoyed it, I'm grateful for the lessons learnt:

* Surrender to reiki with complete detachment from the outcome. Reiki works in mysterious ways and in a funny way I think it was teaching me this.

* Ask for help when you need it i.e. before you die from a broken heart (don't expect anything less than drama from me!).

* In having the cat in cat hospital, we had 48 hours without him physically being here, we knew he was somewhere else but we couldn't see him. This was reiki giving us a trial run and proving we will survive when he passes, though it was very hard and I still dread the day.

* Sacrifice how I feel for the benefit of the person (or cat) who is really going through it i.e. we may be sad that someone is terminally ill, but it is not happening to us, it is happening to them.

* I should not panic at the first sign of something not going to my plan. The Universe is in charge of plans and is far better at it than me.

I've learnt lots more too but they're the key points. It's one none-stop learning-curve party in this house, let me tell you!

To anyone going through a 'rough patch', please try to have faith. God is on your side and even if you can't see a reason for what is going on, there will be one - it might just be a lesson for you, but remember only when the pupil is ready does the master appear.

  

Fear - The Enemy Within

It's taken me until fairly recently to recognise that which holds me back. The Universe is full of infinite possibilities - I know this - I believe this, so what's stopping me from harnessing this? The same thing that stops so many others: fear. You see, fear is the stealth enemy within us, disguised as our caring friend "don't do that", "watch out", "that could be a bad idea", handing out protective warnings here and there, for our own good...or is it?

To put my level of fear into perspective, after years of being raped, my fear of it happening again was so intense that I wouldn't eat out at a cafe incase I needed the loo, I was frightened that someone might follow me and attack me. Ridiculous, right? Fear breeds fear.

Upon telling my talking therapist about this, I was told that fear is innate and helpful as it stops us from doing bad things such as putting our hand in the fire. So there I had it - a one-way ticket to Fearsville where I was welcome to stay as long as I wanted. Something inside me told me this was wrong and besides I didn't want to stay, I wanted to leave but I was totally lost as to how.

Along the way I had many diagnoses of anxiety and stress, but all they really are is fear manifesting physically. If you are suffering from any of these, please don't take this post as a reason not to follow your Drs. advice, but do use it to examine for yourself what is happening to you. If I'd only known back then that all I really needed to do to get better was to face fear eye-to-eye and watch it wither and die. Again, this is very personal to my journey so please continue to seek professional medical help if you need it.

There are but two true human emotions in this life - one is love (our natural state) and the other is fear (our learnt state). You can always trace your emotions back to one of these two. For example, suspicion, anger, blame can all be traced back to fear. While, trust, kindness and forgiveness can all be traced back to love.

To be truly happy we need to be in our natural state of love but the world around us wants us to be in a state of fear. Fear makes us follow rules, comply and buy stuff. Love makes us free, creative and we don't feel the need to fill our lives with material or superficial things. I prefer the natural state of love - call me a hippy - I don't care.

I'm currently fighting a hard battle with fear. One I'm going to win. I'm undoing years of belief systems and years of attracting more reasons to be fearful to me. Like all things, there is a balance to be struck. 

Like yin-yang, love and fear can co-exist, but really if you think about it, love is light and fear is dark, we know of the light because we can compare to the dark and vice-versa. However, let light in to a dark space and light takes over. Love can save the day!

To help in my battle with fear, I now trace all my emotions and actions back and if I'm not acting from love, I don't allow the action at all. I ask myself "what would love do here?" and that's what I do instead.

I wonder how many people could improve their lives every day using that simple method? I wonder how many depressed, anxious and stressed people are being held captive by fear? 

I'm getting out there, I'm living life fuller than ever and giving fear the cold shoulder. I hope one day that we can all do this, it would see the end to war and the world will live as one (as a great song-writer once wrote!). 

This post is dedicated to everyone who has lived in fear or is still living in fear for whatever reason. May it give you hope and a helping hand in our battle against the dark. 

Have a fabulous weekend full of love and free from fear, my lovely blog-readers!

Light piercing through the dark clouds.

What Goes Around Comes Around On The Karmic Wheel Of Justice

The blog is now one month old and I want to say a big "thank you" to its global readers. With close to one thousand hits, I'm blown away by the popularity of it and the encouraging comments from you, the readers. Thank you all so much. Please do share it with people if you think they'd enjoy it.

Hands up if you've ever said any of these phrases or similar "bad karma will get them", "what goes around, comes around - they'll get what they deserve", "I don't need to get revenge, karmic justice will do it for me". Now, hands up if you properly understand karma and the phrases quoted here? For the record, my hand was up the first time and was firmly down the second. I'd like to add that I haven't used any of those phrases for many, many years. I no longer feel the need to hurt others just because they hurt me. I feel blessed because I haven't felt the need since I was about fifteen (although I was very defensive at fourteen - like a Yorkshire Terrier, all bark, no bite). Why don't I say it anymore?

First off, I don't consider it my place to decide who deserves what. Nor do I believe that karma works how we'd like it to when we're in a spiteful state of mind. Too many of us want it to be a vehicle of revenge or a defence mechanism for our own personal use. If you think about it, if karma means that hurting someone else leads to you being hurt back, why are you wishing harm on another? Surely by wishing harm on another "bad karma will get you" too?

What goes around comes around on the fairground of life.

Forgiveness is so much more empowering than revenge or watching another get hurt just because they hurt us. Yet we choose to ignore it so often. We assume that getting karma to do our 'dirty work' will be easier and somehow diminishes us of our responsibility.

It's my understanding that karma is viewed differently according to different belief systems. As usual, my beliefs are a mixture of many belief systems, not that I profess to know anything about karma. How could I? It is after all a force that is at work, not a person running around dishing out punishment on our behalf.

However, what I do believe in is Cause and Effect, The Laws Of Attraction and that whatever you do will come back on you threefold. Our thoughts, actions and words all contain energy and that energy creates our reality. It is therefore our own responsibility for what happens to us. It has nothing to do with us what someone else has done or what happens to them next. If you plant a tomato plant seed, you can only get a tomato plant. You are responsible entirely for your own results.

I know this can be hard to believe when gripped by hurt, but by letting go of that hurt and doing something positive and sincere (The Universe knows when you're faking it!) for the person who hurt you, I promise you that you'll feel empowered. If you can't do that, do what your mum told you "if you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all". So this is me getting all mumsy on you "if you can't do anything nice, do nothing at all", or better still - try harder. If someone does something that hurts or upsets me, no matter what it was, I send them loving thoughts and wish that they get help with whatever issue caused them to behave in such a way.

                                       

A tree can only blow in the direction of the wind.

Stand proud no matter how much you hurt. Choose to be different and only give out love.                           

In some religions they believe karma is carried with you through your many lives, in meditation class we accessed our karmic records and I made a surprising discovery about one of my past lives. It made perfect sense and helped me understand this life. I will share it with you all one day. Ooh, so much to share with you all, it's really exciting!

We all know 'good' people who have 'bad' things happen to them, right? Somewhere down the line they are transmitting negative energy and receiving it back into their lives. Also, who are we to decide who or what is 'good' and what is 'bad'? Surely there is just whatever is happening at that time and that's it. If we're all responsible for our actions, there is no 'good' or 'bad' , just what we've brought about. Food for thought.

Have a fantastic weekend everyone and remember any negative thoughts, actions and words you put out there are your responsibility and harm you most of all.

Part Two: My First Ever Angel Miracle

It was Christmas 2004, Boxing Day, my family were spending some time with my son and I was spending some time with me, myself and I.

PJ's, a fire, Christmas tree lights and chocolate were the order of the day - oh and a can of Stella - I'm a classy chick! As it got dark and the tree lights glistened it was time to drag myself up and start getting ready for the night ahead. Me and my good friend were heading out to a club in Liverpool. You're all probably way ahead of me here, but I was oblivious and had totally forgotten about my fleeting prayer and my moment of clarity from months previous.

I had a bit of a cold and wasn't feeling great and even considered not going, so I did my best to spruce myself up and then sat down for another medicinal drink by the fire. My friend turned up with our other lovely friend (designated driver) for the long night ahead.

As we got in to Liverpool we stopped to pick someone up, his name was Anthony. I know I should have been paying attention but I was cold, wasted and more interested in what DJ's were playing that night than what was going on around me. 

When we got to the club I struggled over the ice in my five inch heels and frankly, the fact I didn't break my neck is an angel miracle story all of its own! Inside the club we split up as only me and Anthony had coats for the cloakroom. Well, we queued and we queued and we queued...two hours in total was wasted in that queue. Eventually we got our coats in and headed off for drinks and dancing. What I didn't realise was this was an excellent ice-breaker. You try standing in a queue with a stranger and see what conversation comes. Then compare it to how much you'd speak to a stranger on a dance-floor - clever angels!

We all had an amazing night - we always do! Shortly before the club was due to shut at stupid o'clock in the morning, we went to get our coats and you guessed it - there was a massive queue. So, there we were forced to talk to each other again. Don't get me wrong, we got on OK, but there was no lightning bolt like you'd expect - that came later and keeps coming to this very day!

Once at the front of the queue we were hit with the news that they'd lost both of our coats - no-one elses, just ours.  Luckily, Anthony lived in Liverpool City Centre and offered to take charge of sorting it out and getting my coat back to me. We swapped numbers for this purpose.

After a major after party at our friends flat it was time for messy Anthony to head off. We said goodbye in person. I got a generic thank you for a good night text - exactly the same text that our other friends got. I replied to this, then Anthony replied and this is when the text tennis started and chemistry began.

It was a whole three or four months later before Anthony managed to break down my protective wall that I'd built up over many years. The very moment the wall went down and I let him in was the very moment the lightning bolt struck. I glowed from the fact I had found someone so perfect for me and matching every quality I had ever wanted. The slow realisation dawned on me that he had everything I had asked Archangel Chamuel to bring me, that we were incredibly suited, more than I'd come close to experiencing before... oh, and his name was Anthony and he lived in Liverpool, a place where your name always gets shortened and they called him 'Tony'. This was what I had asked for and my special delivery had arrived.

We were due to get married this year on 30th August. Something happened and that wedding will no longer take place. It really doesn't matter. When an angel brings you together, your souls are entwined, your energies mix and there is no need for the pomp and ceremony to seal this. It just is. Not that there's anything wrong with the pomp or ceremony if this is what you choose for you - I like a good wedding.

The many beautiful twists and turns of our relationship continue strong to this day.

I'm so glad I prayed, I'm so glad I let that wall down, I'm so glad I realised that fear was holding me back and that I didn't let it win. 

When things go 'wrong', like queueing for hours, losing things, there is always a reason. Be patient and have faith.

Let your wall down, give love unconditionally and love will come reflected back into your life stronger than ever.

This post is dedicated to Archangel Chamuel for bringing me and Anthony together, for keeping us together through those twists and turns and for sending a beacon of love and light through our world and the world around us. After all, love makes the world go around.

Thanks for reading and sharing my very own angel miracle love story. Have a fantastic weekend, everyone.

Part One: My First Ever Angel Miracle

It had been a tough few weeks, well, years really... where I'd attracted nothing but trouble and strife to my life. If you've ever experienced times like this you'll know it can easily become a 'spiral', a 'vicious circle' and that the Laws Of Attraction send the misery it causes you straight back at you down the energy lines of life, making it harder and harder to climb out of that hole.

This particular week I'd had another freak repair at home along with a battle to get it fixed, appointments with my son, my son was suffering at school and I in turn was suffering at school!. Autumn had arrived slightly early harshly signifying the beginning of the end, for us this meant the clinic and school appointments were harder to get to as I didn't drive back then, plus I had lost of time to make up at work but a lack of childcare options available.

One night things had reached a head and my child had been sad about school at bedtime, amplifying my own feelings of despair and hurt. These feelings peaked as I sat on the edge of my bed, finally alone and able to let the hurt out. I sobbed my heart out and wished I had someone special to hold me and help take the pain away. Even someone to go to just one of the appointments so I could make some time up at work, or to mind my son so he wasn't constantly juggled between childcarers. This felt like an impossibility, I closed my eyes and the warm flow of tears began again. I recognised it was fear holding me back (it always is with everyone and everything).  

When  I calmed down and opened my eyes, something caught my eye. It was an angel prayer book, sticking out from under the bed. I kept it there as it had been given to me by a lovely friend years before and I had no use for it. I didn't pray, I wasn't religious and I didn't really believe in angels.    

However, as it had caught my eye I was drawn to it, tentatively, I picked the book up, sighed at myself for what I was doing and opened the book up.

It opened on a page for Archangel Chamuel and the Angels of Love. I scanned the page and saw that they can help with relationships. Feeling pretty daft I searched for the prayer and sobbed as I begged them to help me and my son with our lives. I asked for help to remove my fear and to find me someone, a life partner that I would marry. I explained I didn't want any more hurt and I no longer wanted to shut love out.

Nothing happened. For weeks I kept my eye out for this special delivery from the angels. No knight in shining armour called round randomly. Fancy that. What a let down. I felt stupid for asking for their help. Then one night whilst sat quietly it came to me from nowhere and for no reason - as I'd all but given up hope... the man I'd meet would be called Tony and from Liverpool. Ugh. I didn't even like the name Tony and I no longer lived in Liverpool. 

In part two I will share with you the day I met 'Tony' and how my life changed for the better. Forever. 

To find out what happened next go to Part Two here

No matter what your situation, how bad things are, there is always a light shining in you, waiting to help you and that light is angelic light. They're on 24 hour call - so use them!

Help is always on the horizon

Below is a basic starter chart for how to ask for angelic assistance, whether you believe in them or not. Better still just ask them simply and in your own way and you will be amazed at what happens. If you know someone who could do with some help...you know who to call...The A Team! Please share this blog post with them to help them.

ANGELS

How to pray to angels…

Which Angel to pray to:

Archangel	Ask them for…	Light / colour for visualisation	Fiat/Decree ( repeat in multiples of 3)
Michael And the angels of protection	Freedom from fear and self- doubt, strengthening of faith, perfecting your soul, protection from physical and spiritual dangers, exorcism of demons	Blue	Archangel Michael, help me, help me, help me!
Jophiel and the angels of illumination	Wisdom, illumination, understanding, inspiration, knowledge, clear seeing, help passing tests, absorbing information, freedom from addictions	Yellow	Angels bright from starry height, charge my being and mind with light
Chamuel and the angels of love	Love, compassion, mercy, creativity, forgiveness, dissolution of feelings of selfishness/self-dislike/self-condemnation/low self-esteem, finding lost items	Pink	In the name of god, I am that I am, in the name of Archangel Chamuel: be gone forces of anti-love
Gabriel and the angels of guidance	Revelation of your life plan and purpose, dissolution of discouragement, joy, happiness and fulfilment, help in establishing discipline and order in your life, organisation of your environment, home purchases, new directions, new careers	White
Raphael and the angels of healing	Wholeness, vision, spiritual sight, inspiration of truth, healing of body, mind and soul, inspiration for the study of music, physical needs such as food and shelter	Green	I am the resurrection and the life of my perfect health now made manifest
Uriel and the angels of peace	Inner peace, tranquillity, untangling of knots of anger and fear in your psyche, hope, peaceful resolution of personal, social and relationship problems, nurturing creativity	Purple flecked with Ruby	Archangel Uriel, make me an instrument of god’s peace
Zadkiel and the angels of joy	Soul freedom, happiness, joy, forgiveness, justice, mercy, dissolution of painful memories and negative traits, tolerance, diplomacy	Violet	I am the living flame of cosmic freedom

 A good starter prayer:

NOTE: ALWAYS start with “In the name of the I am that I am…”

In the name of the I am that I am I pray to the seven Archangels and their legions of light and I pray to beloved Archangel ….and the angels of….and I ask that you……………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………

I thank you and I ask that it be done this hour according to the will of god.

Top tips:

·       You must be very specific e.g. asking Zadkiel to make you happy will not work as it is not specific enough – He could make you happy for a millisecond in 50 year’s time…..instead try asking to be a naturally happy person all the time starting today and never ending from then on.  Give reasons why and examples; define what happy means to you.

·       Expect to be surprised. Angels deliver what you want in weird and wonderful ways; so you could be run over, have a near death experience that makes you realise life is worth living and therefore…be happy! Another reason to carefully plan what you ask for and be specific!

·       Once you’ve asked, don’t ask again as this is confusing and will bring mixed, if any, results. Believe what you’ve asked for will come and wait for it to happen – you will see results.

·        Angels will not do anything that would be bad for your soul, so if you are not meant to be a millionaire, there is no point asking, as you won’t get it. Likewise, you would hopefully never ask for anything bad to happen to anyone as that would be disrespectful to angels and would not be carried out as it would be against gods’ will.

·       Use visualisation to imagine what receiving your prayer would look and feel like. Picture a light the same colour (as the angels you’ve prayed to) surrounding your image and use when you pray.

·       Don’t expect to not have to do any of the work! You may receive an idea to help solve something, you might meet someone who can offer help, you might have to change how you go about something…it will not necessarily be handed over to you without you having to have some faith and follow your gut instincts or do some of the work. Be grateful no matter how your prayer is answered – you asked for it and if you think about it, if you gave a gift and someone turned their nose up, you wouldn’t give to them again, would you?

·       To have your prayers heard you should work on your karma, like attracts like, so don’t expect angels to want to be near you if you only have bad thoughts or do bad things. The better your karma from your positive thoughts and actions, the louder you sound to angels.

·       To help draw the right angels to you use the fiat/decree and say it in multiples of three.

If you don’t believe…then start with something small and realistic and watch it happen, then build up to bigger things.

It helps to be calm, quiet and focussed when praying but is not absolutely necessary.

The more you pray the better you will get at it and the more you will ‘tune-in’ and receive inspiration to fulfil your prayer.

Love and light xx