The Unravelling Of Ego To Reveal True Self

What does it mean to go on a spiritual path?

Maybe surprisingly, it's not about deities, beliefs, crystals or angels. It means taking the steps to know and understand the True You. The True You is very different to the You you're brought up to know. Years of brainwashing from peers will set you up with beliefs about your Self and life that simply aren't true. It's not about religion, it's about YOU.

For example, we're led to believe we have a soul (that's if you believe that at all). This simply isn't true, WE ARE souls - what we have is a body and mind to allow us to experience and grow here on this planet.

Mostly we let our Ego (Exaggerated sense of self-importance/what we think we are) rule our words, thoughts and actions and unless we become aware of this and get our Higher Self to take back control, it's hard to be truly spiritual.

It's helped me to put into a list what is Ego and what is Self. Although, making a list made me laugh, as that itself is an Ego thing to do! 

Here's the short list I made for personal reference:

Ego/Sense of Self MeMySoulAndEye.blogspot.co.uk	Soul/Spirit/True Self MeMySoulAndEye.blogspot.co.uk
Analytical	Understanding
Anger	Calm
Before/after (past/future)	Now/this moment
Believe	Know
Blocked	Creative
Cold	Empathetic
Comparative	United
Competing	Content
Conditional	Unconditional
Controlling	Surrendering
Cynic	Has faith
Deceitful	Honest
Defensive	Open
Different	Similar
Doing	Being
Excluding	Including
Fear	Love
Fitting in	Freedom
Forceful	Supportive
Following	Leading (by example)
Greed	Generosity
Guilt	Improvement
Head	Heart
Hinder	Help
Hoard	Give
Irresponsible/blaming	Responsible
Judging	Accepting
Jealous	Admiring
Knowledge	Wisdom
Label	Value (moral)
Lack	Gratitude
Lesson	Experience
Materialistic	Recognising abundance
Mean	Kind
Overbearing/bossy	Co-operative
Personal agenda	Oneness
Power hungry	Humble
Stuck	Growing
Think	Aware
Uncaring	Sympathetic
Unforgiving/resentful	Forgiving
Wanting	Thankful
MeMySoulAndEye.blogspot.co.uk	MeMySoulAndEye.blogspot.co.uk

When you honestly examine all that you've come to know about yourself with a view to getting back to the real you, it opens up many a 'can of worms'. It takes some degree of bravery to do this (I mean to really do it - I previously thought I had, but I hadn't come close!). Essentially, you face daily, all your fears and self doubts over and over again until you find what is useful and what isn't. It's like being born again, rocking what was your foundation for years and replacing it with something completely new. It's not about suffering, being depressed or consumed by this process - it's about having the courage to do it with integrity and no other agenda.

However, once you start this process what was once real, now becomes fake and it can be hard to know what to even talk about with the oldest of friends. It can be a lonely battle ground with your Shadow Self (the bits you hide because you don't like them), not that it has to be as there is a spiritual community brimming with like-minded souls for support.

You see, we are all on a spiritual path, it's just some are more aware of it than others, more willing to knowingly slay the demons.

This last week I have been feeling inferior to others. This is, of course, Egotistical (Lower Self). How can I be inferior when we all come from the same Source and just have different lessons to learn?

I know this and I'm desperately trying to get back to Source. It hasn't stopped me comparing my blog to others and finding it less popular, not as well laid out as others, wondering why I'm not able to do Reiki II yet (my relationship with reiki has been long ready, but my spiritual and business side isn't ready yet), why am I 37 years old and still living in a damp rented house? It is all my own responsibility and actually irrelevant stuff in the scheme of things, but it doesn't stop the hurt.

No-one said my chosen path would be easy and they were right. Still, it's my path and I'm going to continue to follow it, as I know it will lead me Home.

The revelations; realisations, pure truth and bliss that occasionally shines through are more than enough to tell me to keep on going, even in the darkest days.

Wherever you are on your chosen path, may it be beautiful, truth-filled and useful to you all. 

Remember, the Ego is not your enemy or 'bad', it can teach you a lot and without it, we wouldn't know our Soul.

Love and light from Lou and her very useful Ego. xx

This Post Is Brought To You By The Letter 'M'

One of my favourite all time memories is of being aged about 7 or 8, I was taken to get a mini kitty: this is a kitten to all you normal people out there. It's true that mini kitty's choose you...a little jet black runt of litter chose me that day. I called him Merlin, can't say that I particularly liked Camelot or Arthur - I hadn't even read the story - I just felt a strong connection to this Wizard. What child wouldn't? He fixed un-fixable things with magic, there's no denying, that's pretty cool.

My mini kitty was my best mate and gave love unconditionally, the way pets do. He was so soft he let me push him up and down our street in a pram. I now know that out of respect for the animal I shouldn't have done that, but at that age it was my way of showing him I loved him. He was my baby.

Despite what this photo looks like, Merlin was not harmed in the making of this photo. He fell asleep every night cuddled into me like that. 

It was obvious to me that he could see the same ghosts and spirits in my room that I could. When they appeared he would turn to look at them and either purr his acceptance or swish his tail at them. It was our secret and my room became our den, which we spent hours and hours in together - inseparable.

A slightly older Merlin surveying his territory. This was taken at Whinfell Rd in West Derby, Liverpool, where our house was more haunted than the last one.

In later years I neglected Merlin. I had a boyfriend and knew that I'd be in trouble if I wasn't at his home at a set time each night. It's one of my biggest regrets that I allowed this to happen. Cats are adaptable and have a built-in survival instinct, so he moved on and easily became my parents' best-mate instead. Still, this shouldn't have happened and he deserved better from me. Guess I need to learn to forgive myself the way I easily forgive others.

Many years after Merlin passed and quite recent to now, a lovely friend of mine told me about some energy healing, similar to reiki: the healing was called 'M' Healing and the 'M' stood for Merlin. I was still very new to the concept of energy healing at this stage and wasn't even sure that I believed there was a new energy called 'Merlin'. I had the curiosity of a cat though because of the name.

My curiosity led me to look into it and I came across this website http://www.merlinhealing.com/Free-Distant-Group-Healing.html which told me all about it. Lets just say it did nothing to quash my curiosity.

'M' Healing logo used courtesy of Keith Mapson.

One Sunday I was a FIFA Widow, well I was actually quite a regular FIFA Widow at the time but...there was a chance to have free distant 'M' Healing, which is regularly advertised on  the website and I decided to try it for myself.

I sat quietly at my PC and followed the instructions for how to receive this healing. Not expecting to feel anything, I was bowled over by the power of this energy. It had a kind of galactic spacey feel to it and I was rushing from the strength of it. It was very visual and I could see my grandparents who had passed reaching out their hands to me (well, my nana was, my 'big' grandparents were looking on bewildered!) About 30 minutes in, I could see a ghost in my minds eye, a person from my past who had sadly taken their own life. I didn't want to see them and I tried to shut them out, but I heard them say "It should be me...". I didn't understand. What should be them? Maybe they meant the healing? I knew they'd needed help on the Earth Plane. I wanted to send them healing (and away!) but I didn't know how.

The above photo is taken from the NASA website. I wonder if this is what Merlin looks like? It's what he feels like to me.

I got the message during another free 'M' Healing session to take photos out the window and I would see further evidence. 

 Is it a bird, is it a plane? There's a figure flying in-between the clouds. It looks like a bird here, but I promise you that it wasn't!

Dark cloud handing out pink orbs on a super sunny day.

Apart from that it was a pleasant experience and opened my eyes to question more about what there was in this Universe. I ran to tell my FIFA Fiance all about it. I got the usual look of you're crazy, but I love you and I'm going to humour you.

That same night I had a lucid dream that took me to the Spirit World. I know it was the Spirit World because I've been before and it has a different feel to this Plane and it's not the same as a dream. 

A man came for me, I thought him to be a Spirit Guide, though I knew he wasn't mine. He was dressed in red and gold robes - a bit like someone from the Catholic Church would wear (must admit this did put me off him a bit!). It felt subdued and solemn, like a death but we weren't at a funeral. It was very serious and formal. I was taken to a church which looked a bit like my old childhood one.. We passed a glass cabinet where most of my married relatives photos were displayed with them in their couples. They too were dressed in red and gold on the photos and I knew the photos were their wedding days. The man guiding me looked pityingly at me and shook his head. I noticed mine and my Fiances picture wasn't in there. I assumed because we weren't married yet (this was around February and we were due to be married in August).

I was led ceremonial style to the altar and I was surrounded by Ascended Masters all wearing the same red and gold robes and I waited there for my Fiance. I believed we were to be married there. The message came from the Guide "It's not him you're going to marry". It was all so confusing. He told me "You know who it is, but they haven't turned up". I instantly knew it was my ex, who took his own life and who I saw at my house that day. Panic rose in me like a flame through a match. I tried to protest...the Guide held me there without touching me..."but I don't want to...I don't trust them", I said.

Running as fast as I could out the church, I found a block of flats. I climbed the outside of the flats, searching in every window for my ex. I had to explain this couldn't happen. 

When I reached the 5th floor of these hideously dirty flats, my intuition told me this was his room. I climbed through the window and he appeared. It all came back to me... how much he hurt me, how much he manipulated me and how much I let him because of the overwhelming love I felt for him. He said "I'm sorry, I'm late". I heard my pathetic self forgive him (again! Grr!) and he told me "You will never love anyone the way you loved me." It devastated me. I knew I would never let anyone treat me as badly as he did and love them as unconditionally as I did him. A bit like my cat, Merlin, who loved me unconditionally, though I didn't deserve it.

The dream ended in joy as I realised we had met to forgive each other and say goodbye. The saddest thing was on the way out of the church when I checked the display cabinet and there still wasn't a photo of me and my Fiance.

A few months later me and my Fiance split up in an unrelated incident and our wedding was cancelled. No-one could have predicted it - except maybe, Merlin.

I can't tell you if the dream was a prediction, guidance from 'above', or just something I needed to get out of my system in order that I could heal. I can tell you that it was one of my most powerful healing experiences I've ever had.

It goes without saying that we must treasure what we've got whilst we've got it. Let the important people (or animals) in our lives know what they mean to us. I know as well as anyone that it can all change in the blink of an eye, leaving you with regrets.

Why not make it your mission this weekend to appreciate all that you have. I'm going to.

Have the best time, everyone and I'll be back to share more of my life with you all very soon.

Merlin doing his favourite past-time - sleeping.

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We Live And We Learn

Hello and welcome to new readers from Russia, Serbia and Ireland. 

Alone in the house with very little money for entertainment; we didn't have a TV and it was often a toss up for who got to eat tea that night (my child won - don't call Social Services just yet!). At night when baby was in bed, I would start to read.

The books I read were lent to me by my grandad and were about the religion, or some would say science, that is Spiritualism. Reading the books, for the first time in my life, life itself started to make sense. Don't worry - I'm not religious and have no intention of forcing my opinions on anyone. Ever.

Until then I'd heard the term spirit but not known what was meant - unless it meant Vodka, then I was familiar with it! It turns out it's the very essence of you (your personality). I tend to think of it in cartoon terms - the angel voice is your Inner Wisdom, your Spirit and the devil voice is your Human Mind (aka The Ego). This is another glimpse into the strange workings of my mind!

The books covered all sorts of topics and had me absolutely gripped - I already had enough evidence to believe most of them to be correct.

The sorts of questions they answered were why some people live a glorious life and others suffer; you see; it's all a question of learning, we come to this earth to experience as only through experience can we learn and only through learning can we move to higher spiritual planes once we leave the earth. This is where Ascended Masters 'reside'. Some of what you experience you agree before you come here, this is referred to as your 'life contract' or 'soul plan' or similar, and other bits are our own doing through following the mind, rather than the soul voice, leading us off 'path'.  Does any of that sound feasible to you? Because it does to me. I appreciate for lots the idea of that will be just too much and you'll be reaching for a stiff drink at the very thought of something so ludicrous. It's often easier to blame someone else or think of ourselves as unlucky etc and I do appreciate that what I'm saying is hard to fathom.

I will blog more about what I learnt and the beliefs I have formed, but what I will say now is that I'm not religious as I don't prescribe to set beliefs, just a mish mash of them taken from life lessons, my own evidence and many other belief systems.

Not content with teaching and supporting me through my questions, my grandad has now gifted me a very special and precious notebook. This notebook is a piece of history like no other, for it contains lessons from Ascended Masters that were scribed by my great grandparents while channeling spirits during 1930's Seances (Circles).

In this incredible notebook it confirms my beliefs and the system I have described to you today. One day I will transcribe some of the teachings and stories from the spirit world in a blog post, but for now I'll leave you with this starting taster.

Scribed in 1932 during a seance in Liverpool, using a Planchette (Ouija Board). The meaning of colours of aura's (energy fields):

   

White: Purity, best white is finest purity.

Gold: Peace.

Flame: Honour, one held in high esteem.

Green: Intellect, knowledge.

Yellow: Brain power, studies highest things.

Mauve: Goodwill, has sympathy, ready to help.

Blue: Truth, trueness, seeker of truth.

Pink: Love.

Red: Passionate, good if set in right direction such as music etc.

Brown: Depression, worrier.

Grey: Despair.

Silver grey: Known despair but fought way out against odds.

Blacks: Means in the depths and can be seen in those suicidal.

Peacock blue: Mixture of green and blue, neither colour being used to full potential.

Cream: Lacking enthusiasm of mind.

Wine: Love of change and sport.

Burnt sienna: Moody. Needs bringing out of themselves.

Purple: Benevolence, suffered and gained sympathy for others.

Who knew there were more colours than Dulux! My sons aura is peacock blue sometimes changing to indigo blue, as he's an Indigo Kid - that is probably yet another blog, for another time (maybe).

If anybody is familiar with auras (I'm just starting to see them again). Then please leave a comment or get in touch and confirm whether or not you find this teaching from the notebook to be accurate.

I've learnt so much and tested what I've learnt over the years, so I can't wait to share more with you as the blog grows. Please keep coming back for more and share the blog with those you think it may be of interest to.

There is just one last thing I'd like to say - how cool is my grandad?! He could only get cooler if he confessed to being the real Batman! I'm so lucky to have him in my life.

This post is dedicated to my grandad for all he has taught and shared with me. And for all of life's teachers (that's all of us, by the way!), thank you for reading.

Me My House And I

Hello and welcome to the new readers from Switzerland, it's lovely to have you join us all.

Me My House And I

At the tender age of eighteen I left home for Exeter to try and get away from the abuse and fear that resided in Preston. Not long after this I had my only child, after another disastrous relationship broke up following a scary episode in Exeter, which ended with my life being seriously threatened. Another story for another time...

I was lucky enough to have good family, my amazing uncle who rescued me from Exeter and my long-suffering immediate family who welcomed me back with open arms.  All I will say on this subject is - don't mess with scouse families!!!

Photo taken from FinePix

Once I had my baby it was time to start acting like an adult, something that had completely eluded me up until then. They say nothing prepares you for parenthood, well, I say nothing prepares you for life and when life 'happens' you have to embrace it and strive to always do your best no matter what the situation. 

My babys' father was AWOL (this is a blessing, but one of those you can't see at the time) but we were lucky enough to be offered a house by the local Housing Association and one that was on a private road, in a good area, so we were really grateful for that.

With next to no belongings and an understanding family I was able to go and look at the house straight away. I enlisted help to get it into shape before moving in.

I excitedly headed down the path and although I had been warned that the house was in disarray, I didn't care, as it was going to be our home and it represented a new start for us.

As soon as the front door opened I had the most terrible feeling that someone had been hurt and abused in there. I could barely step foot in the place. Domestic violence was thick in the air. You've heard the expression you could cut the air with a knife? Well, you could, yet no-one was there.

Everyone tried to reassure me that the house would clean up and a lick of paint would see it right. It looked so much better after we spent some time sorting it out - weeks actually, as it was in such a state - you wouldn't get away with putting a young family in a house like that these days. 

I was still ill at ease with the house and my baby wouldn't settle at all either. Perhaps he was picking up on my feelings or perhaps he was picking up on the house feeling.

Safe to say I've had nothing but trouble with this house, which I've never been able to move from. Every time I get close to a move (twice I've been let down at exchange of contracts when trying to move), something happens and there is no way that I can move. In addition, relationships, as you know from a previous post were abusive and broke down, so many issues with the building that can't be explained...The kitchen ceiling has collapsed twice with no reason known; we've had the smell of sewage/rot so bad that returns all the time, Environmental Health and Dyno-Rod have been. Experts have been under the house, cameras, dyes, you name it...no explanation and no cure!

One particular time following another freak repair, insurance was involved and the carpet fitter told me he knew two previous families who lived at the house and that they had been cursed whilst living here. He told me that now they've moved they have wonderful lives, but their lives were awful whilst living in this house. I forgot to thank him for his comforting words!

I do believe in taking responsibility for your own life and everything that happens, using The Laws Of Attraction to manifest good around you, but despite my incredibly positive ways, it's fair to say in this house we've been dogged by bad luck.

Enough was enough and I decided to enlist help, contacting a Space-Clearing expert in the area. For those that don't know, space-clearing is the art of clearing away negative energy and imprints in buildings that can cause bad luck/misfortune. This wonderful lady sensed the same as me without being told anything. She used Divining Rods (for dowsing) to source what is wrong and it turns out there's a male spirit (negative entity) plus lots of negative energy left-over from all the bad things that kept happening.

This wonderful lady is coming to do the space-clearing on Saturday and I will let you all know how it goes. I can't wait for the fresh start and the catalyst to moving on to pastures new.

To arrange for space-clearing of your home or business you can contact Jayne here:

http://www.complementary-healthcentre.co.uk/

These are the cards that I drew to advise how the space-clearing will go:

  This is the card for the past representing the need to take back power.

 This card is for the current and represents the need to connect with the Divine. It shows that there is a loved one who has passed who is watching over me. I know who the 'loved one' is as I have had experiences of them here in the house, which I will write about another time. I do not want them around.

 This represents the future and tells that the new space will be a great place for creating spiritual community and helping others, where previously there has been despair.

I'll finish by saying that during my lonelier years in this house, my spirit grew immensely. I was guided greatly by my grandad, who I have learnt so much from and continue to learn from to this day. He and his parents where Spiritualists (in fact my grandad used to be a healer) and it was in my darker days alone in this house that I started to learn about The Occult and to find "my own evidence". I will be posting soon about the Circle (Seance) that my Great Grandparents used to host at their home in Liverpool and the book my Grandad has given me featuring their channeled messages from Spirit. 

We need both good and bad in our lives to create balance and teach us lessons, but with so much 'bad' it is time now for me to embrace the 'good' to re-store balance. I still look forward to the lessons each day brings me. 

Written with gratitude to all those who helped get the house sorted one way or another and those who supported me through my darker days alone in the house. 

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