This Post Is Brought To You By The Letter 'M'

One of my favourite all time memories is of being aged about 7 or 8, I was taken to get a mini kitty: this is a kitten to all you normal people out there. It's true that mini kitty's choose you...a little jet black runt of litter chose me that day. I called him Merlin, can't say that I particularly liked Camelot or Arthur - I hadn't even read the story - I just felt a strong connection to this Wizard. What child wouldn't? He fixed un-fixable things with magic, there's no denying, that's pretty cool.

My mini kitty was my best mate and gave love unconditionally, the way pets do. He was so soft he let me push him up and down our street in a pram. I now know that out of respect for the animal I shouldn't have done that, but at that age it was my way of showing him I loved him. He was my baby.

Despite what this photo looks like, Merlin was not harmed in the making of this photo. He fell asleep every night cuddled into me like that. 

It was obvious to me that he could see the same ghosts and spirits in my room that I could. When they appeared he would turn to look at them and either purr his acceptance or swish his tail at them. It was our secret and my room became our den, which we spent hours and hours in together - inseparable.

A slightly older Merlin surveying his territory. This was taken at Whinfell Rd in West Derby, Liverpool, where our house was more haunted than the last one.

In later years I neglected Merlin. I had a boyfriend and knew that I'd be in trouble if I wasn't at his home at a set time each night. It's one of my biggest regrets that I allowed this to happen. Cats are adaptable and have a built-in survival instinct, so he moved on and easily became my parents' best-mate instead. Still, this shouldn't have happened and he deserved better from me. Guess I need to learn to forgive myself the way I easily forgive others.

Many years after Merlin passed and quite recent to now, a lovely friend of mine told me about some energy healing, similar to reiki: the healing was called 'M' Healing and the 'M' stood for Merlin. I was still very new to the concept of energy healing at this stage and wasn't even sure that I believed there was a new energy called 'Merlin'. I had the curiosity of a cat though because of the name.

My curiosity led me to look into it and I came across this website http://www.merlinhealing.com/Free-Distant-Group-Healing.html which told me all about it. Lets just say it did nothing to quash my curiosity.

'M' Healing logo used courtesy of Keith Mapson.

One Sunday I was a FIFA Widow, well I was actually quite a regular FIFA Widow at the time but...there was a chance to have free distant 'M' Healing, which is regularly advertised on  the website and I decided to try it for myself.

I sat quietly at my PC and followed the instructions for how to receive this healing. Not expecting to feel anything, I was bowled over by the power of this energy. It had a kind of galactic spacey feel to it and I was rushing from the strength of it. It was very visual and I could see my grandparents who had passed reaching out their hands to me (well, my nana was, my 'big' grandparents were looking on bewildered!) About 30 minutes in, I could see a ghost in my minds eye, a person from my past who had sadly taken their own life. I didn't want to see them and I tried to shut them out, but I heard them say "It should be me...". I didn't understand. What should be them? Maybe they meant the healing? I knew they'd needed help on the Earth Plane. I wanted to send them healing (and away!) but I didn't know how.

The above photo is taken from the NASA website. I wonder if this is what Merlin looks like? It's what he feels like to me.

I got the message during another free 'M' Healing session to take photos out the window and I would see further evidence. 

 Is it a bird, is it a plane? There's a figure flying in-between the clouds. It looks like a bird here, but I promise you that it wasn't!

Dark cloud handing out pink orbs on a super sunny day.

Apart from that it was a pleasant experience and opened my eyes to question more about what there was in this Universe. I ran to tell my FIFA Fiance all about it. I got the usual look of you're crazy, but I love you and I'm going to humour you.

That same night I had a lucid dream that took me to the Spirit World. I know it was the Spirit World because I've been before and it has a different feel to this Plane and it's not the same as a dream. 

A man came for me, I thought him to be a Spirit Guide, though I knew he wasn't mine. He was dressed in red and gold robes - a bit like someone from the Catholic Church would wear (must admit this did put me off him a bit!). It felt subdued and solemn, like a death but we weren't at a funeral. It was very serious and formal. I was taken to a church which looked a bit like my old childhood one.. We passed a glass cabinet where most of my married relatives photos were displayed with them in their couples. They too were dressed in red and gold on the photos and I knew the photos were their wedding days. The man guiding me looked pityingly at me and shook his head. I noticed mine and my Fiances picture wasn't in there. I assumed because we weren't married yet (this was around February and we were due to be married in August).

I was led ceremonial style to the altar and I was surrounded by Ascended Masters all wearing the same red and gold robes and I waited there for my Fiance. I believed we were to be married there. The message came from the Guide "It's not him you're going to marry". It was all so confusing. He told me "You know who it is, but they haven't turned up". I instantly knew it was my ex, who took his own life and who I saw at my house that day. Panic rose in me like a flame through a match. I tried to protest...the Guide held me there without touching me..."but I don't want to...I don't trust them", I said.

Running as fast as I could out the church, I found a block of flats. I climbed the outside of the flats, searching in every window for my ex. I had to explain this couldn't happen. 

When I reached the 5th floor of these hideously dirty flats, my intuition told me this was his room. I climbed through the window and he appeared. It all came back to me... how much he hurt me, how much he manipulated me and how much I let him because of the overwhelming love I felt for him. He said "I'm sorry, I'm late". I heard my pathetic self forgive him (again! Grr!) and he told me "You will never love anyone the way you loved me." It devastated me. I knew I would never let anyone treat me as badly as he did and love them as unconditionally as I did him. A bit like my cat, Merlin, who loved me unconditionally, though I didn't deserve it.

The dream ended in joy as I realised we had met to forgive each other and say goodbye. The saddest thing was on the way out of the church when I checked the display cabinet and there still wasn't a photo of me and my Fiance.

A few months later me and my Fiance split up in an unrelated incident and our wedding was cancelled. No-one could have predicted it - except maybe, Merlin.

I can't tell you if the dream was a prediction, guidance from 'above', or just something I needed to get out of my system in order that I could heal. I can tell you that it was one of my most powerful healing experiences I've ever had.

It goes without saying that we must treasure what we've got whilst we've got it. Let the important people (or animals) in our lives know what they mean to us. I know as well as anyone that it can all change in the blink of an eye, leaving you with regrets.

Why not make it your mission this weekend to appreciate all that you have. I'm going to.

Have the best time, everyone and I'll be back to share more of my life with you all very soon.

Merlin doing his favourite past-time - sleeping.

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What Is Reiki? Who On Earth Knows?

What Is Reiki?

This is a common question and one that, in my opinion, there isn't a right or wrong answer to. 

I'm going to answer the question purely from my point of view and from my heart, based on my own experiences.

I am, of course, a novice at it's practice, having only completed Reiki Level One in May this year, yet I feel an affinity with this wondrous Source, like many others, and as an Enthusiast, I'd like to share my beliefs about it.

There are some who claim to be experts of reiki, which I disagree with - you can be an expert reiki practitioner with many years vast experience but you'll never be an expert on reiki itself. Why? Reiki is not something that can be controlled, you can channel it but you can't second guess what it will do or how it will do it. For this reason a level of faith is required to practice it.   

The Meaning of Reiki

As the Japanese word 'reiki' does not translate directly to English, it can loosely be translated as this Rei (Ray) = Universal , Spiritual Consciousness/Guidance, All Knowing, Soul - I take this to mean wisdom from your Higher Self (or God) e.g. knowing what the root cause of the issue is/knowing the real you... and Ki (Key) = Breath, Life Force, Vital Radiant Energy - I take this to mean the invisible energy that powers our lives and can heal us. Others refer to it as Life Source, Light Source, God, God's Blessing, God's Love, Universal Energy, Source Of All Manifestation, I could go on...it transcends words and I still have no real idea what it is to me yet.

It's invisible to most, though with practice you do get a sense of what it looks like or you may be lucky enough to see its energy. Practitioners (and sometimes clients) can feel it, for some the effects are quite strong, like myself, I shake uncontrollably and I do have to 'ground' myself a lot. I can also feel it 'bubbling' or 'sticking' at certain points in the healing, which can be an indication of a blockage in the persons energy system.

You see, if you think about it we are all made up of atoms and electrons, which vibrate and give off 'energy'. This isn't the science bit, by the way - I am a lover of science but this is not a scientific practice, rather, an ancient sacred practice instead. If you think about it, hands-on healing has existed in stories for many years. I imagine it's what Witch Doctors and Shamans used to do to their tribes. So, if we are all giving off energy of some form, this means we have an energy field around us (aura), which can be affected by traumas and other such life events, leaving us feeling drained or 'out of sorts'.

An example is: Think about when you're happy and you meet someone who is sad - you're energy has mixed with that persons and you now don't feel as happy. You probably feel lethargic and have less energy. Right?

The picture above is the closest I can find to illustrate what it feels and looks like to me when I give/receive energy-healing. As I can't draw very well, it was taken from Google Images (energy-magic.com).

Reiki is the practice of connecting to Life Source and channeling it via set hand positions through the clients' energy field to help get everything as it should be again.

The beauty of reiki is that it always works for the greater good and can never and will never harm anyone. It works on a deep level and can't always be felt. Sometimes, if the person is not ready for necessary change, it will bury itself and come out when the person is ready - creating a shift in the persons' belief system, personality or even life.

This picture of the sun rays piercing the clouds could be representative of reiki energy being channeled through the many layers that make us up.

A lot of people consider it relaxing, but it depends on the session, I, for one, have never had a relaxing reiki treatment. For me, it knows I am all about spiritual growth and to do this I must face deep routed doubts and fear until they no longer block me - so this is what I get. 

You can't decide what you want it to to do and nor can the practitioner - reiki knows best.

The best way I can describe it to you all is to say that it is like pouring the real you back into you and bringing you back to your true life purpose/dharma. Once you do that you'll be truly happy (not the artificial happy that many feel and is so easily effected) and as a consequence healthy. So this is why it is a holistic healer - it helps with mind, body and soul. It can be, and in my opinion, should be used on babies and children; all age groups and animals too. You can also reiki things and problems. 

In a short space of time I have seen it create changes in people I have practiced on, that no Dr has been able to do. That's not to say that Drs aren't wonderful - they are and should be consulted in conjunction with your reiki practitioner. Even without miraculous results it is a miracle that this 'thing' exists and is open to all.

I've had many strong experiences during reiki and I plan to share these with you all at some point. Including, my reiki attunements (which you must have in order to practice) - these were Out Of This World moments in my amazing life.

For now, I'll leave you with the thought, that if we were all doing what we were put on this earth to do; all truly happy in the knowledge that we are on the right path; wouldn't the world be a better place? I particularly think children are taken away from that these days and distracted by the material world around us. Wouldn't it be wonderful if we gave them back the gift of being at ease with themselves and their reason for being on this planet, instead of following the crowd and the adverts? It's for that reason I believe the world would benefit from reiki in schools. I want to make this happen.

If anyone who knows me personally face to face, would like a free one hour reiki treatment, then please get in touch.

I'd like to thank those who helped me write this with special thanks to Jane Swales, my Reiki Master/Teacher, who introduced me to the wonder of reiki and has taught me lots. And to Ros and Jayne who introduced me to the wonder of Jane Swales! Also, Jayne Morrisey who has taught me about energy-work. They can all be booked for treatments or courses at their websites here: 

http://www.sacredspace-reiki.co.uk/

http://www.complementary-healthcentre.co.uk/

Curious? Why not try it, be open to change and watch it work it's miracle gift for you.

This is Hilarion, born of Pagan parents, said to have gone to the desert at 15 years of age to live an incredibly modest life and who is said to have performed miracles of healing on many. 


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